Sometimes I Think About Dying: Film Review
After making a name for herself with the Star Wars franchise, Daisy Ridley has taken a break from blockbusters to do some indie projects, her first being Sometimes I Think About Dying.
The film, based on the play Killers, follows Fran (Ridley), who lives a lonely existence outside of her office job. She is a wallflower; someone who prefers to sit quietly and observe others rather than get involved. Fran doesn’t find conversation easy and she hates being asked things about herself because she thinks she’s boring. She often stares off into the distance and dreams about dying (hence the title).
Her attitude changes with the arrival of her new colleague Robert (Dave Merheje), whom she bonds with and actually wants to talk to. She makes more of an effort to be social and her walls come down, but only slightly, with her guard immediately going up when he asks her questions about herself.
Ridley revealed in an interview that the script originally had her narrating Fran’s inner monologue but she suggested getting rid of it. This is a bold move because it means we follow Fran for long stretches of time without her saying a word. There is a risk of it being too dull to watch but thankfully it is still very compelling.
Ridley also has to wordlessly communicate what Fran feels but she capably manifests Fran’s internal life on her face subtly but effectively. This film marks a change of pace for Ridley and proves what she can do in a stripped-back and understated role.
Films are usually about big personalities with dramatic storylines so it is refreshing to follow an ordinary socially awkward person as she makes a connection with somebody. It made me think of Perfect Days, which showcases the everyday life of a toilet cleaner. These films show that quieter people have something to offer too.
Admittedly, I would have liked to know more about Fran. Why is she that way? Has she always been or did something happen? I have so many questions. But this film is told from her perspective and she doesn’t want people to pry into her life, so it makes perfect sense that we don’t get much backstory.
Sometimes I Think About Dying won’t be for everyone but I think it’s a great showcase of Ridley’s talents. I’m loving this indie route for her.
In cinemas from Friday 19th April